...I lost a very close friend back home. It might not have been directly my fault, but he died under my command.

[Archer sounds relatively calm about it. The projected feeling is pain, of course, but there's quite a bit of fondness in there as well. Kimblee really has helped him come to grips with this. It's only now he's realizing that. Months ago he couldn't bring up Kimbley at all. He's not sure what to think about that.]

What happened in your world? I understand if you don't want to talk about it, but it does sound similar.